Friday, November 20, 2009
Today was a little better than yesterday.I think I can honestly say that yesterday was the worst day we have had so far! Not only was Kyle physically tired, but he was emotionally tired! He told me last night that he thought he would just quit! I told him I wouldn't let him. We had a lot of information thrown on us yesterday and I think it was the straw that broke the camel's back. He was angry, upset, frustrated and sad all in one. I wish I could make things better, but it hurts to know I just can't. I can't tell him I understand or know what he is going through. All I can do is listen and it just doesn't seem to be enough. The Dr. told us that because of Kyle's level of injury, his bowels and stomach may not get much better. The nerves to his bowels and stomach are just badly damaged, its not hopeless but it may be as good as it gets.That was the first bad news, the second was that Kyle may have developed HO. HO is short for a long medical term that I can't spell. They say that when the body is injured it produces bone cells that happen to gather and grow in the wrong spot his they think is in his Left hip. It causes redness, swelling and can really flare up and cause pain. Fortunately Kyle hasn't complained of much pain in that area but his leg is swollen. They will do a bone scan on Monday and they will know for sure. If it is HO then he will be on medicine for 6 months. After that news I think he lost it. When his accident happened I remember him asking the usual question, why me? Last night he said, what did I do to make God hate me so much that nothing can seem to go my way. I simply said God doesnt hate you at all, in fact he loves you so much, he spared your life for reasons only he knows. I do believe soon God will show us the plan he has for him and our family. I just have to keep reminding him to keep his faith and love for Christ and not to doubt him, fore when he is ready he will show us his plans. He seemed to be ok with my answer and he fell asleep soon after. It has been tough, but it always gets worse before it gets better. I just hope the better is coming soon, I don't know how much more of the bad we can withstand.