Friday, November 20, 2009

Emotional Day

Today was a little better than yesterday.I think I can honestly say that yesterday was the worst day we have had so far! Not only was Kyle physically tired, but he was emotionally tired! He told me last night that he thought he would just quit! I told him I wouldn't let him. We had a lot of information thrown on us yesterday and I think it was the straw that broke the camel's back. He was angry, upset, frustrated and sad all in one. I wish I could make things better, but it hurts to know I just can't. I can't tell him I understand or know what he is going through. All I can do is listen and it just doesn't seem to be enough. The Dr. told us that because of Kyle's level of injury, his bowels and stomach may not get much better. The nerves to his bowels and stomach are just badly damaged, its not hopeless but it may be as good as it gets.That was the first bad news, the second was that Kyle may have developed HO. HO is short for a long medical term that I can't spell. They say that when the body is injured it produces bone cells that happen to gather and grow in the wrong spot his they think is in his Left hip. It causes redness, swelling and can really flare up and cause pain. Fortunately Kyle hasn't complained of much pain in that area but his leg is swollen. They will do a bone scan on Monday and they will know for sure. If it is HO then he will be on medicine for 6 months. After that news I think he lost it. When his accident happened I remember him asking the usual question, why me? Last night he said, what did I do to make God hate me so much that nothing can seem to go my way. I simply said God doesnt hate you at all, in fact he loves you so much, he spared your life for reasons only he knows. I do believe soon God will show us the plan he has for him and our family. I just have to keep reminding him to keep his faith and love for Christ and not to doubt him, fore when he is ready he will show us his plans. He seemed to be ok with my answer and he fell asleep soon after. It has been tough, but it always gets worse before it gets better. I just hope the better is coming soon, I don't know how much more of the bad we can withstand.


  1. Erica & Kyle,
    I just heard a teaching on "waiting on the Lord" Our culture trains us for impatience, expecting everything to be instantly fixed, but God's timing is always perfect. Isaiah 40:31 says: "They that wait on the Lord will renew their strength, they will soar as with eagles' wings; They will run and not grow weary, walk and not grow faint" I will be praying this scripture for both of you each day! Love and lots of prayers,
    Johnny & Nancy Birkenfeld

  2. Kyle and Erica- You are strong and God will see you through. We are praying for strength.

  3. Kyle please don't give up you are doing so good. Pray hard and he will listen. Fight Kyle your family needs you. Prayers will be stronger for you and your family. Luv Ya

  4. You are in my prayers. Your blog today took my breath away, it is so honest. Thank you for sharing. God does have a plan for you and he reveals it every day. I will keep praying for healing and for comfort and peace. Kyle you are bound to feel discouraged but I know you will pick up the fight and you will keep fighting! Prayers from Holy Family,

  5. Kyle and Erica,
    You don't know me, but my husband is Rick Kieschnick from Vernon who suffered a Traumatic Brain Injury on June 20th this year. I have read your blog on several occasions, and after reading today, I had to comment. Yes, there will be hard days, days you want to give up, things that are unexplainable and not fair. The way I have learned to deal with the question "why?" is to look at it as a compliment from God...Kyle and Erica can handle this...that's what he's thinking...not that he's mad at you. And look how many people are praying for you...would that many people be praying for someone who is a sorry person? No, they wouldn't be...God has what he wants right now...people looking to him to fufill their needs...and he His time. I pray for y'all daily and know you will get through won't last forever. Another thing...I grew up playing b-ball against Kyles Aunt Mindy...if he's half as tough as she is...he's gonna be fine!

  6. KYLE MYERS! DON'T YOU DARE LET THE THOUGHT OF GIVING UP ENTER THAT LITTLE MIND OF YOURS!!! YOU ARE ONE OF THE TOUGHEST MEN I KNOW AND THERE ARE SOOOOO MANY PEOPLE WHO NEED YOU AND LOVE YOU...myself being one!! Now THAT is consolation isn't it?? I don't pretend to know why bad things happen to good people but I DO KNOW that He loves you more than life itself..He proved that didn't He Kyle? You keep your eyes and mind focused on Him..i have a feeling He is going to use you and Erica in MIGHTY ways..touching people in ways that you never dreamed possible..remember Kyle, He sees the BIG PICTURE...we just see what's happening right hold on to HIM even if its just by your fingernails ok? He is drawing close to you and Erica right now..and the weeks following..i know..cuz I asked Him to....we love you both soooo what they tell you to do Kyle and don't fuss too much..OK? we want you home...Erica, thanks for letting us have a little glimpse of your hearts today
    the fox